The Irreversible Reckoning… IS HERE!!!

So after a rather successful preorder drive, it is with great pride that I share with all of you the news of THE IRREVERSIBLE RECKONING‘s release in the Amazon store today. Right now, it is 99c, but as soon as I upload it to Smashwords tonight, you can procure it for free (and brownie points if you report the lower price to Amazon!)

However, I must issue a disclaimer now, so I can feel like a responsible author: There is a lot in this series, but in this third installment, especially, that can be considered a “trigger,” and I would like everyone coming into this experience to be expectant of that. And also, I can almost guarantee you that the ending to this one is going to rip out your heart. I know it sounds crazy to issue a warning, but one of my favorite professors in college gave us a similar warning before we read one of our books for her class, and I am glad she did, because though I thought it was silly at the time, she was right when she said the book would make us angry, uncomfortable, and sad, and that it would have us thinking in the gray area, not the black and white.

So with that being said, you can head over to Amazon to download your copy or you can download from Smashwords this evening! And if you need to talk after you’re done reading, I am here for all of you. I will give you virtual hugs, be your virtual shoulder on which you can cry, and you can throw virtual objects at me in rage after you read the last few pages.

For both the potential trigger and the potential trauma, I offer my apologies! Happy reading, and again, THANK YOU!!!


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*DRUM ROLL AGAIN* The Irreversible Reckoning Official Release Date and Description!

I know what you are thinking: “Oh, my goodness, I cannot believe that she is posting so soon, given how prone she is to publishing one post and then disappearing for weeks on end!” Well, I am nothing if not unpredictable, so here I am, with yet another post on the third book in my Eternity series. As I revealed last week, the title of this installment is The Irreversible Reckoning, and it is available for pre-order TOMORROW, December 28, 2014!! Actually, it might be available today, considering how weird Amazon is, and considering the page is up when I searched for it. Yay! I’m so excited.

Here’s the funny thing about Amazon pre-orders: They actually require you to submit your official manuscript ten days before the book is released. See, originally, I put in the release date as my older sister’s birthday, January 20th. But then, they required the manuscript on the 10th, and there was no way that was happening, given that I am a freakishly obsessive editor, though my published stories would dispute that fact, as I still find many, many errors in them even after I painstakingly read through them three, four, or five times. But I digress.

To make up for that totally random story, let me say that The Irreversible Reckoning will be available for purchase (and it will download to your Kindles if you pre-order it any time between now and then) on JANUARY 28, 2015! So, one month from today. I know I promised that it would be December or January, and I am so sorry that it is so late in January, but please know that it is because I am trying to ensure that the manuscript you receive is as close to perfect as I can humanly make it. I want to make sure that the story progresses exactly as I want it to progress, and that it sets up the truly epic last two books in the series. I am not just holding out on you to make your anticipation grow, because I know I’m not one of those authors who is well-known enough to play around with my reading audience like that 🙂

So, to make up for the late date in January, I reveal to you, just in case you haven’t been to Amazon yet, the official description for The Irreversible Reckoning:

“It is the third year after the Landing on Pangaea, and Brynna Olivier has lost her daughter, her sister, her brother, her friends, and her first love. Hoarded onto the Lapsarian Maximum Security Prison Ship, she must survive amongst the worst of Pangaea’s criminals, while also contending with her new arranged marriage to Adam. Meanwhile, Alice, Quinn, and Violet try to escape the clutches of the Old Spirits, with Quinn and Alice using their evolution to slaughter every enemy in their path, and Violet using her wits to outsmart Caspar, who has treacherously changed his allegiance.

Twenty-five years later, Brynna is both Adam’s Queen and the Queen of the Lapsarian. Fighting for her life every day has inevitably resulted in her taking many lives, and now, she is unrecognizable, to both herself and to all those who love her. Quinn and Alice battle against the Old Spirits, all to avenge their second family that they lost. But as Alice’s rage and dedication to the cause only grow more violent over the years, Quinn begins to long more and more for the log cabin of which they dreamed in their youth. Violet is kept imprisoned in the city of Blancstizia, with Dr. Miletus and her wife, Macie. Together, their combined medical knowledge is much needed as a new, brutal plague begins to wipe out Old Spirit families left and right.

Three new voices begin to tell their stories after the Fall of the Red Anarchy: Grace, a teenaged Old Spirit child imprisoned after trying to escape her arranged marriage to Caspar; Lara, Tyre’s most favorite imprisoned woman; and James, Brynna’s lost love. Each is connected to Brynna deeply, in a number of profound, mysterious, and sometimes devastating ways.

Their world is shattered. Their family is broken apart, perhaps irreparably. Their lives have faced a reckoning that can never be undone, and yet there is a larger, more violent reckoning to be had. Despite it all, Brynna, Quinn, and Violet continue to fight for their lives, their family, and their freedom in this third installment of the bestselling Eternity series.”

Hopefully, this is enough to hold everyone over until the 28th. Let me just take a moment to thank everyone once again who has read the first two (very long) installments of this epic saga, are pre-ordering this third installment, and are looking forward to the fourth and fifth installment. I write this series because I love these characters, and I love this story, and I know every author says this, but if I didn’t have the readers, constantly giving me feedback and constructive criticism, and telling me that they love these characters and this story as much as I do, I don’t think I would finish it. You all are everything, and I hope, more than anything, that the story I have written for you is worth the wait. I really think it is. 🙂


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*DRUM ROLL* The Eternity 3 Title and Cover Reveal… Merry Christmas!

There is absolutely no better way to end this temporary hiatus than to reveal, for the first time ever, both the title, the cover, AND the pre-order date for the third book in the Eternity series. I’m not going to make a big speech here, but I have to thank, as usual, my publicist, cover designer, former roommate, BFF, and badass partner-in-crime, Alex, for her epic cover-making skills!

So, without further ado…………………………………….


Gahhhhhhhhhhh! You know what I love most about this cover? The continuity with the first book.


I mean, look at the colors! They MATCH!

AND… the BEST news, this title will be available for pre-order on December 28! So when you get your new Kindles and Nooks and computers, this will be right there at your fingertips to pre-order onto them. BOOM! Christmas cheer!

So, for the lovely fans I have accumulated for this series that I love like a firstborn child, for you fans I love to death, Happy Holidays from me, and sorry for falling off the map here for the past couple of weeks. Work and grad school applications and the holidays have taken their toll upon me, but I hope that this reveal makes up for it!

Upcoming: The official synopsis for The Irreversible Reckoning AND the official release date!

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Controversy: Allow Or Avoid It? On THAT Scene in The Shattered Genesis

Have you ever written something, then published it, and then gone back and looked, and thought, “That’s actually really controversial, and I don’t know if I am accidentally condoning something that I really don’t want to condone?” That has happened to me a million times since writing and publishing The Shattered Genesis. The story revolves around nothing more or less than a large group of survivors starting life anew on a mysterious alien planet. Sometimes, the common thread between all the story lines gets very fine, and it is just a collection of almost vignette-like moments that form a cohesive whole only by deepening the relationships of the characters. Sometimes, moments occur that will affect the rest of the series. One of those moments is of this controversial variety, and it is one with which I struggle constantly.

Here are minor spoilers.

After James and Brynna arrive at Don Abba’s house (Don is the leader of one faction of Earthean survivors, and he has aligned himself with Adam, the King of the free people of Pangaea), they discover a lawless, almost anarchic system in which there are no rules. Don has wild parties every night, and at those parties, he and his people consume an otherworldly substance called Peace Fruit that, at least a first, provokes a heightened state of euphoria similar to MDMA but without the risk of overdose. James and Brynna consume this one night, him willingly, and her through a contact high, and though their night is magical, the following morning is not. James suffers a common side-effect of this plant, in that it re-surges in his system, erases any rationality, calmness, and humanity, really, and after he and Brynna have a particularly nasty fight, he attacks her. Physically. Almost sexually. Brynna only escapes because Adam shows up to pull James off, and once he does, Brynna does physically hit him back for attacking her.

But at the end of it all, once he comes to her, in tears, on his knees, she takes him back. Yes. She takes back the man who hit her while he was high.

This is problematic, even for me. I could have changed this scene to make it less terrible. I could have changed it to make it easier for my reading audience to forgive James for this terrible assault. But I couldn’t. For some reason, whenever I went back to delete this scene altogether, or even just to tweak it, I couldn’t touch it. Why? Am I trying to teach women and men that it is okay for the latter to be forgiven in the event of physical abuse? No. I’m not trying to teach anyone anything. This is just the way the scene turned out. This is the way it resolved. So, how do I justify keeping Brynna and James together after this incident occurs?

Well, it had nothing to do with, “This was his first offense,” or “he said he would never do it again.” It has to do with the fact that he had no idea when he consumed this drug of its terrible side effects. No one did. He was given this under the pretense that it would induce relaxation and euphoria which would then result in amazing sex, because that’s what Don told him. That’s what James’s friends told him. I have frequently drawn parallels in my mind to how in real life, when women and men are abused, sometimes they talk themselves into staying with their abusive partner, “He/she was drunk,” or “he/she was high,” and how that excuses the behavior, because it allows a woman or man to tell himself or herself that it will never happen again. I justify James and Brynna still being together because James was ignorant to the effects of this mystical, magical, foreign plant, whereas we, out here in real life, here on the Earth, are totally familiar with the effects of alcohol and drugs, and how they can be the catalyst, but not the base reason, for abuse.

Brynna says that she is afraid of James being stigmatized after this event, but as she learns, many others had similar side effects. In fact, she learns James consumed three berries of Peace Fruit, which would make whatever side effects he were meant to suffer even worse. If I am trying to say anything here, it is that there are more to pharmaceuticals than meets the eye, but I don’t even think I’m saying that.

Let me pair this scenario with another that occurs in my second book, The Bargaining Path. Violet, Brynna’s sister, and her new friends, Caspar, decide they want to get revenge on Violet’s mentor who has just kicked her out of the Medical Program. Together, they consume “Devil’s Touch” (which I based off of Devil’s Breath, a real-life natural substance that practically erases free will and replaces it with almost complete suggestibility. Look it up, it’s terrifying), and together, they attack this woman, holding her to the ash-circle that keeps these really gnarly evil tree creatures away. Violet assaults this woman. She does so under the influence of mystical, magical, weird, unknown drugs. If I hold James accountable, must I also hold Violet accountable? Or, if I don’t hold James accountable, must I also not hold Violet accountable?

I do not condone abuse. I do not condone staying with one who is abusive. I love the scene in the second book where James expresses his fear that, with his new strength and stronger temper, he will hurt Brynna, and he asks, “If you thought I would hurt you, you would leave me, right?” And she says that she would. Know that I am not just sticking up for my characters and my story when I say that if Brynna thought James was a physical threat to her, she would be gone. Gone, gone, gone. But as she says, it would be hard for her. She would be relieved to be away from one who could harm her and the people she loved, but it would be hard. James recognizes his own dangerous flaws, and she recognizes them, too. With her dark past, she would not suffer abuse if James were merely drunk or merely high. She gives him a second chance because he and several others did not know what would happen. She barely knew, and she is practically omnipotent, for goodness’ sake!

If it had happened on Earth, Brynna would have left. If it had been booze or pills or cocaine or anything we “Eartheans” know that had resulted in his abuse, Brynna would have left. I want to clarify that these strange and mystical circumstances were what kept her with James, and that is all.

I am clarifying this for myself, so I can stop thinking that I inadvertently sent a message with which I do not truly agree. Brynna and James fight (verbally), and lie to each other, and betray each other, and hurt each other emotionally, but it is not just James hurting Brynna. Brynna hurts James, James hurts Brynna. They love each other, they fight, they break up, they find their way back to each other. They have established their relationship on this foundation of need, of this recognition of a desire for constancy. They survived the end together and began to reestablish their lives in this new and dangerous world together. They do genuinely love each other.

But if James were a constant physical threat to Brynna, if he were abusive, she would leave. And if she were abusing him, he would leave.

For the record, no one has accused me of condoning an abusive relationship, or of writing (and therefore glamorizing) an abusive relationship. But I want to say my piece on this in case anyone ever does, because this is an issue that is very important to me, and I would never, ever, ever condone abuse. On Pangaea, in these totally weird circumstances, James can be forgiven. On Earth… Not so much. At least not for me.

(Wouldn’t it have been so much easier if I had just changed this scene?? Curse me and my stubbornness. Rather, curse my story’s stubbornness. They really do take on a mind of their own, don’t they?)

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I Have Revised My Advice to Aspiring Indie Authors. Is it Better?

Wanna know the best thing about being self-published, besides, you know, everything? Release dates that are not hard-set. I always have a goal in mind, and I try to hold myself to that goal for my fans’ sakes, but it is awesome being able to push it back a couple weeks or even better, release early. This time around, I am going to do a pre-order drive on Amazon and Smashwords, but I will only be doing that once the release date becomes more definitive. But it is so nice not having that deadline staring me in the face when I have work, grad school applications, and surrogate children to worry about, because honestly, those things are just a little more important to me. As most self-published authors can tell you, writing and self-publishing is another job, but whether it is your second job, or third job, or fourth job is up to you.

And no hard-set deadlines aren’t the absolute best thing about being self-published. The absolute best thing is not having to change anything about the story in order to mold it to a publisher’s liking. I have said it a million times on this blog, and a million more times through other channels, but I will say it for the millionth-and-first: When I write, I don’t want to be censored. When I say I want to write a book about a twenty-two year old departing the apocalypse-ravaged Earth and falling in love with a forty-five year old man while they try to reestablish life on a new planet in the midst of a really violent, really terrible, really obviously symbolic, civil war, then that is what I want to write. I don’t want James to be thirty. I don’t want Brynna to be twenty-eight or twenty-nine. I don’t want to write “caress-of-the-inner-thigh-fade-to-black” sex scenes. I don’t want to edit out any content. I don’t want to reshape everything so that the book can fit easily into any specific category, be it a specific genre or targeted towards a specific age-group. Every scene is there for a reason, and as I am the only person who knows where the story is going, it should be at my discretion what needs to be included, and what doesn’t. Say I add a lot of scenes with Brynna and her friend Rachel. Why do I do that? Well, because Rachel is going to play a very significant role in the third book, especially, but she will be ever-present in the second book, as well. I love that my readers know that I know what I’m doing, and that is not something I cannot guarantee would come with a traditional publisher. Because, in this self-publishing game, all that matters is an indie author’s readers, and no one else. If readers dig it, then I’m doing my job. As I’ve said before, this is a business, and being that I am the publisher as well as the author, it is my job to get the reader the best possible product. Sure, this is an “art form.” Sure, these books are my beautiful, wonderful, perfect, little babies whom I brought into this world with a lot of sweat and tears and pushing and screaming. But at the end of the day, my readers are giving me either their money or their time, and therefore, it is my responsibility to provide them with the best story that I can provide. Some people dig it, some people don’t. It’s fine either way. If readers dig it, I did my job. If they didn’t… Well, at least they didn’t pay any money for it; they just paid with their time, and I am sorry, I can’t refund that. But I would if I could!

So what brings this random love letter to self-publishing on? What made me want to give advice? Well, it was two years on the 1st since I published the first (pretty terrible) manuscript of The Shattered Genesis. When I started out, I knew nothing about the promotional side of self-publishing, nor did I know how to write very well. The Shattered Genesis has since been revised and re-released with additional content, and The Bargaining Path was written with the newly-honed writing skills I gathered in college. But besides celebrating the two-year anniversary of my first entry into the self-publishing world, I am writing this because it has been a pretty rough week in terms of my writing. When I get into one of my down moods, I start second-guessing myself, and though I always come through those periods of second-guessing with new epiphanies about this whole writing deal to carry me through, when I’m in the midst of those periods, it really sucks! On Monday, a short story I wrote got rejected for, and not only did it get rejected, I received the most generic rejection letter that the magazine sends. Now, am I as emotionally invested in my short story as I am in the Eternity series? Hell. No. But still, I thought it was a pretty cool story. I still think it’s a really cool story. My reaction to this was made worse by being in a down mood, because honestly, for weeks leading up to the rejection, I was considering asking for a withdrawal from consideration because I wanted to self-publish on Amazon. So after two days of doubting my writing ability, I realized that a) everyone is going to have a different opinion about my work, and just because I think it’s damn near perfect doesn’t mean everyone will, and b) this all just comes down to people’s subjective opinions, and if wants to send me a generic rejection letter like I just wrote the biggest heaping pile of shit ever, then fine. Amazon Short Stories, here I come. What does this reiterate to me? Well, it reiterates what I have been saying is one of the most important things for an indie author to know: I know that I believe in the product I have created, and I know I can sell it, so why am I going to rely on a foreign entity to sell it for me when I can do it myself? A lot of self-publishing can be summed up by sounding like the Little Red Hen:  “I dreamed up the book. I wrote the book. I published the book. I sold the book. I promoted the book.” And now, I am going to apply that same logic to my short story.

So much of this business relies upon the opinions of others. When people ask me about being a writer, specifically when they, too, want to be a writer, I always ask if they have thick skin. Generally, the answer I get is, “I don’t know,” to which I reply, very cryptically, with a Chesire Cat-like grin, “You will find out.” But when people say yes, I generally say, “Well, keep it that way” and if people say no, I don’t say, “Well, consider a different career,” I say, “It will get stronger over time, believe me.” When I was growing up, and I would ask writers who I went to see at speaking engagements what their advice would be for young writers, nine out of ten would say (and sometimes rather arrogantly), “Choose a different career.” Well, telling me that I can’t do something or that I shouldn’t do something drives my recklessly stubborn and ruthlessly persistent need to prove that yes, I can do it. So here I am today. Those same writers would more than likely also tell you that self-publishing is for writers whose stories and/or writing ability is so shitty that they can’t get published elsewhere, but if you read a lot of self-published work, you will see that that simply is not true.

The biggest advice I tell writers who ask me about writing and self-publishing now? It’s still “you gotta have thick skin” but now, I have added this: You have to believe in your own work. Know when criticism is valid, and know when you should just get on with your bad self and keep doing what you’re doing, and also, your work cannot please everyone. No matter how hard you try to make it appealing to a myriad of ages and to readers of all different genres, there will still be people who don’t like it, and that’s okay!

As long as you honestly feel like you have put every possible iota of energy and attention into your manuscript and into creating and promoting the final book, and that you have created the best possible product for your reading audience, then you’re going to be alright. In fact, I would even say that you are going to be a success.

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An Inside Scoop of the Third Book in the ETERNITY series… As promised!

I don’t have even the slightest inkling what the third book cover is going to look like.

To celebrate being in the Top 20 of not one, but TWO Amazon Science-fiction Bestseller Lists (Postapocalyptic-Scifi and Scifi-Romance), I am going to talk very, very vaguely about the third book in the series, as I promised I would before I went to Florida. So far, it has no title, so it will simply be referred to as… “the Third Book.” Ooooooh, shocker! If you follow my Twitter (@teerudyeternity) then you probably saw me post yesterday about how I have written a whopping 56 pages in eight days, which, for me, is a new record. I know, I know, it only averages out to about 7 pages a day, but unfortunately for averages, it did not break up so cleanly as I was doing it; I wrote two or three pages one day, and then 20+ pages the next. As it stands currently, the third book is at 330 typed pages, so roughly 600-some Kindle/paperback pages, and guess what, my friends? It’s nowhere near done. The paperback will be so thick that you can use it as a bludgeoning instrument in the event that you are mugged. You’re welcome in advance.

But now to the sneak peek.

Without spoiling the end of The Bargaining Path (sorry for any emotional distress it caused you, and I have heard the emotional distress was epic… Sorry, sorry, sorry!), I will tell you that the beginning of the Third Book finds Brynna in the darkest place of her life. As we know from the first two installments, Brynna’s past is pretty heinous, so that this is the darkest place should be indicative of just how deeply she has sunk. However, as I hope has been made evident by the first two installments, Brynna has a way of using her strength, craftiness, intelligence, and now, on Pangaea, her power, to pull herself back up again. Up until this point, we have seen her power growing little by little, but in the opening section of the Third Book, she is going to bring out that power full force in an effort to save the man she loves. But will she be successful? I don’t know. As much as I like the idea of a happily-ever-after (at least in regards to resolving what happened at the end of the last book, to put it very vaguely), I also like the idea of a straight-up existential crisis in which Brynna sees that despite what Adam has told her, her power cannot move mountains, so to speak. So, could this spell the end of one of our heroes? You’ll have to stay tuned and see.

It would be very hard to talk about Quinn and Alice, and Violet and Nick, because at the end of The Bargaining Path, they were hovering perilously close to death, and I would not want to disclose whether or not they all made it and take the fun out of reading their sections for the first time. So, what can I tell you without spoiling anything? Well, as far as Violet goes, her mentor/sometimes nemesis Dr. Miletus is going to figure very prominently into her storyline. I loved writing Dr. Miletus’s character, because I love writing women who “don’t take no shit,” if you’ll pardon my French. One of the hardest scenes I have ever had to write was the one between Violet, Dr. Miletus, and that bloody Caspar Elohimson, and guess what? Caspar is alive and well in this book, and he is worse than ever. His sinister loyalty (read–obsession) with Violet is strong, and his sadistic vendetta against Dr. Miletus is even stronger. Why? Well, we shall see, but I can disclose that despite how the object of his “affections” (read again–obsession) grows to care for her mentor/sometimes nemesis, Caspar’s vendetta does not lessen; in fact, it only gets worse, and it is up to Dr. Miletus and Violet to put an end to both him and his ilk once and for all. How, you ask? Well, they are both in the Medical profession. In fact, Dr. Miletus is the most skilled medical professional on the entire planet. They will use the skills they share to their advantage, and to devastating effect.

I want to talk about Alice and Quinn, so I have to tell you that she survives the attack that occurred at the end of The Bargaining Path. We knew he would survive, because he’s the narrator (though even that won’t save any of our narrators in the fifth and final book). So Alice lives, and believe me, one of the things about which I am most pleased with the first draft so far is how Alice is shining. To put no finer point on it, I am calling this book “Alice’s badass motherfucker novel” (again, pardon my French), because after the time jump (more on that in a second), she is the character that thrives most in this newer, more hostile, Old Spirit-occupied world, while Quinn begins to flounder. Up until now, Quinn has been very pro-Alice, in that he knows she is tougher and stronger than he is, but as he faces who she has become while grappling with the fact that he has not changed in the same way, we will see a totally different side of his character.

That time-jump, though… Way, way too many spoilers could happen here, so all I can say is it’s a big jump. (Two and a half decades *cough cough*), BUT I love, love, love, LOVE where each of these characters are in the end. They aren’t in a happy place, per se, but boy, has there been some MAJOR changes. I think you all are going to seriously dig who each of them has become, because though there are certainly facets of their personality that have carried over all these years after the events in The Bargaining Path (yes, Brynna is still sassy and smart and sexy, and Quinn is still a hopeless romantic, and Violet is still a loveable drama queen with strength she scarcely knows she has), they are also very, very different.

All of this sounds pretty good, I hope, but I also must issue a fair warning that this installment will be darker than the other two combined. Inner darkness and the sacrificing of humanity in order to stay alive are two themes that figure most prominently into the story, and the full extent of the Old Spirits’ cruelty, particularly the punishments they inflict upon those they deem morally reprehensible, will be on full display now that they have essentially taken over the world. At the beginning of the manuscript, I will post a “trigger” warning, though I more than likely should have been doing that all along. For me, though, it is when stories get darker that I feel most enmeshed, because despite the sadness and uncomfortableness and awfulness, I want to see the characters I love come out stronger on the other end. I can’t promise that that will happen here, because even I don’t know where this big, five-books-long story is going, but I hope that some good will come from all this bad I have written in this book. Keep your fingers crossed!

And as my final little addition to this sneak peek, I will say this: To all of you who asked for more Points of View from more characters, your wish is granted. Some characters we already know and love will have a chance to speak their side of the story and show you where they’re at, while some new characters will also get their say. As for the identities of those new characters, my lips are sealed.

…I watched Spice World and now I’ve had that song “Mama” stuck in my head ever since. Weird…

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The Conundrum of Quinn and Alice: Character Favoritism or Lack Thereof

I don’t know if this is just me, or if this is all writers, but I suffer terribly from something I like to call “character favoritism.” I don’t know if other writers have experienced this, or if this only happens to people who write more than one first-person narrative point of view, but it occurs when you have one character that you absolutely love writing, and then you have others that as you either try to write them or even think about trying to write them, you start inventing thousands of other things that you would rather do instead. In the Eternity series, I love writing Brynna’s narrative point of view, and sometimes, I don’t mind Violet’s, but Quinn’s? Every time a Brynna section ends, and it is time to begin Quinn’s (pardon the rhyme) I find myself having to crawl back to my laptop while whining like a three-year-old all the while. Internally whining. Well, sometimes externally whining.

This is character favoritism. I could write for hours in Brynna’s point-of-view. I could write her story for ages, because she is my favorite character that I have made, and her storyline is the deepest and richest for me to write. I am sure that I am not the only one who experiences this issue. I shouldn’t feel as guilty about it as I do, considering that if one takes away the fact that this series is my baby, and I want it to be the greatest it can possibly be, and if I can’t put love into these other characters then the book as a whole is going to suffer, and once all of that is taken away, they’re just fictional characters, then one would realize that feeling guilty about it is ridiculous. And I need to get over myself in a hurry.

If I could go back in time and rewrite The Shattered Genesis, I wonder if I would choose to write Quinn’s narrative point of view. It is no secret that Brynna is my favorite character to write. Though I have never addressed the matter before, I think that the writing is above average in Brynna’s narrative voice, while in Quinn’s and Violet’s, it is lackluster, and I feel that the depth of Brynna’s storyline is always significantly deeper than Quinn and Alice’s. I flesh out Brynna’s plot points down to the finest details, and with Quinn and Alice, and with Violet, too, sometimes, I struggle to even break the surface of what I view as their mundane, adolescent problems. And yet not all of their problems are mundane, and not all of them are adolescent. And if they are adolescent, they are still deep and important; they are the struggles that all adolescents and post-adolescents must face. Like when the three are trying to choose their careers, and Quinn and Alice choose military training (which tests them individually and as a pair) and Violet chooses a career in Medicine. In this postapocalyptic world, on this completely different planet, Quinn, Alice, and Violet are faced with choosing their path in life, something that all 18 year old kids must do, regardless of planet and regardless of the state of the world. This is an adolescent problem, but it is a deep and important one; it is rife with potential for a deep, meaningful storyline. It was during those scenes that I actually enjoyed writing these characters’ narrative perspectives, but right now, as I come off the heels of some truly excellent Brynna scenes in Eternity 3 (working title, obviously) I face the struggle I faced in all of The Shattered Genesis and at least a quarter of The Bargaining Path.

Everyone who has glanced at this blog even briefly has heard me whine about my attempt to write a young-adult novella that is in the same universe as the Eternity series but takes place on Earth. I have decided to shelve that project until I have finished the third book, because I hope by the time the third book is published I will have a bigger audience who will appreciate the crossovers and cameos within, and the parallels between the Eternity and Eternity: Earth series. But I can say this: The narrative was just starting to gel when I shelved it, and the only reason why I have put it aside for now is because I am far more gripped to write Eternity 3 than I am to struggle with this novella, and as my novels have thus far run about 500 pages each, I figured that I should indulge my desire to start that goliath of a project before the terror I inevitably feel at the prospect of it convinces me not to continue. So, how does the young-adult debacle fit into this? Because Quinn, Alice, Violet, and Nick are young adults, and even now, as they face the consequences of the end of The Bargaining Path, they must face problems to which a young adult can relate. But Gooooooodddddd, they all bore me. Violet is alright most of the time, but Quinn and Alice? The struggle is real, to say the least.

Don’t get me wrong: I love them together. I think they are adorable. The scene in The Bargaining Path where they talk about having sex for the first time is one of my favorite scenes. And they had some sense of agency in the second book that I feel they did not have in the first. But now, there is not much that I can do with them unless they escape from their imprisonment and go on the lam together. But where would that lead?

Honestly, I think that is what I will do, but then, what will I do with Violet? Will she have to escape, too? I suppose she will, and then what do I do with all of them together?

Every time I ask the question of “what do I do?” it always settles itself. I don’t outline these books in any way. I have two or three key plot points that I include, and the list grows as I keep writing, but I don’t sit down before I write the books and plan it all out. I just open the document and start writing, and I have an uncanny ability to tell when a scene, even if it is extremely well-written and affective, is occurring too early or too late, so I will copy and paste it into a separate document to be added at a better time. I never know when that better time will be, but I know that there will be one. So, I need to stop whining in this blog post and just keep writing. Even though I am going to whine after this is done through both the early Quinn portions and the early Violet portions, I just have to write them. I know that these two have fans in the wider Eternity fandom (which consists of three people and family members) so I don’t want those people to get offended; I love all my characters, but one (Brynna) has more love than all the others, and I can’t change that. It’s hard for me to write the others because I don’t relate to them. However, because I don’t relate to them does not mean that I can’t write them so that they are relatable. I have no hate for my own characters, but when I love Brynna, James, and Adam so much, it is hard for me to switch out of her epic headspace and her deeply emotional storyline to focus on Quinn, Alice, and Violet, who always seem to end up being totally boring.

This is my fault, I know, because I’m the author, and if anyone is going to make them not boring, it’s going to be me. But it just seems that whenever they find themselves crawling out of their rut, I always watch them slide right back into it, and then all I want to do is whine when it’s time to write “Quinn” and “Violet” in bold and underlined print to signify the start of their chapters.

I am not ashamed to admit that Brynna has my heart. I am sure other writers suffer from Character Favoritism and Lack Thereof, or maybe it is like picking between children, and no other writers suffer from this condition. I am not ashamed to admit that, because despite my favoritism, I do not neglect Quinn, Alice, and Violet; I try my damnedest to make them interesting. But it’s hard when I’ve got Brynna, this strange, unique creature, with this strange, unique worldview, and these strange, unique relationships, and I have to leave her for these traditional creatures, their somewhat unconventional worldview, but their still rather traditional relationships.

To answer my question: I would never eliminate them if I went back in time to when I was writing the first book, because there is so much that I have written involving them that I love. Giving them their own narrative perspectives might be killing me now, but I know that there is purpose to it. There is a purpose to them.

I just have to invent that purpose. *Sigh*

On The Hilarity of Writing Sex Scenes… But Why They’re Important


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I was once told by a rather hysterical reader of the first two books in my Eternity series, The Shattered Genesis and The Bargaining Path (both available for free on Amazon, Nook, Smashwords!) that there was too much sex in the books. Strangely, from the tone of this reader’s voice, I gathered that the abundance of sex scenes wasn’t necessarily a bad thing, it was merely exhilarating, and maybe a little exhausting? I don’t know, I just took “too much” to mean excessive, but you can never have too many sexy sex scenes, right, so long as there is a story, too.

I don’t know why, but I’ve had the idea for this post in my mind for a while. Maybe it’s because writing sex scenes is such hilarious business, regardless of who you are or how mature you claim to be. For instance, I think, for a 23-year-old, I’m pretty mature, if one can measure maturity in terms of completion of undergraduate college, entry into the “real” world, and like, not laughing at fart jokes. Well, most fart jokes. But regardless of my maturity, I still find myself either outwardly laughing or cringing when I try to write sex scenes. The second I start to write about James sliding his hand between Brynna’s legs, or Brynna grasping hold of him (‘cuz that’s how I always phrase it) I immediately picture my parents, my teachers, my conservative friends, my grandmother, the Pope, and other random spectators standing behind me either snickering or gasping.

Anyone who has read my book knows that the main character, Brynna, is romantically involved with a man, James, who is twenty-three years her senior. James and Brynna have lots of sex. And it’s not the implied, “He ran his rough hands up my smooth thighs, kissed my lips, and… then we awoke the next morning, gently asphyxiated by the sheets that were snaked tightly around us from our night of wild, passionate love-making…” No. I’m not gratuitous, either–I refrain from mentioning bodily fluids, because though I am sure some people are into such things, I find them to be unnecessary details that are off-putting at best–but I’m also not a “caress-of-inner-thigh, fade-to-black” kind of gal, either. And do you want to know the best part of it? Even though I laugh or cringe sometimes, I love writing a good sex scene. Even if I have to laugh at having to choose between writing “erection” or “bulge in his pants,” and even as I struggle for hours trying to find a sexy word for “vagina” and “penis” that isn’t totally creepy like “manhood” and “womanhood” or totally ridiculous like “cockpit” and… “cock”… by the time I’m done writing the scene, I realize that I have done exactly what I set out to do, which is to show James and Brynna as a healthy, happy couple who enjoy a healthy, happy, sexy-as-fuck (ha!) sex life.

So, let’s say that this person who said there was too much sex in the book was saying that the sex is a detraction or a distraction (or a detracting distraction?) Why do I include them in the book? Well, because part of Brynna’s character development involves evolving from a young woman who is scared of men and physical/emotional intimacy into a young woman who embraces her sexuality and enjoys having sex, to put it far too simply. One of my favorite sex scenes I have ever written came (ha!) in the second book, when Brynna tells James how badly she wants him all the time. She says that regardless of where they are, sometimes she just wants to rip his clothes off and screw his brains out (though she puts it eloquently, of course, it’s Brynna). My intention here is to show that Brynna takes charge of her sexuality and is unashamed of her wildly intense sexual desire for her partner. She owns that she wants him.

I write sex scenes and include them in the books for no other reason than that they show Brynna, in her unconventional relationship with this older man, taking control of and enjoying her sex life. I am going to get real philosophical-like right now, and say that sometimes in our society, females are demonized for wanting sex, for having sex, and sometimes, for just the opposite. Alice, another character in the novel, constantly chastises herself for still being a virgin after dating the same guy for three years, and she is always gently assured, by either her guy or Brynna or any of the other characters, that as long as she is making that decision for her sake, then it is the right decision. If there is one message I want to be conveyed by these characters and their sex scenes (or lack thereof) it is that no matter the personal choice one makes on this matter, as long as one is preserving his or her health–physical, emotional, and spiritual–then it’s all good.

And besides, regardless of word choice (manhood < penis, cockpit < vagina, and what about clitoris and balls? Why do I find those words so unsexy?! And what about for “butt?!” “Ass” is too much, but “butt” (ha!!) is like elementary school, and we’re writing sex scenes here!!) sex scenes make the story just a little more exciting. I seriously don’t mean that as a pun.


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Make love, not war, man. This post was so 1960’s. The sexual revolution, man… No, but seriously, SEX IS GOOD AND NATURAL. Let’s treat it as such, shall we?



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What do you even say in a first post? Is there an instruction manual for this?

The Shattered Genesis Cover.

The Shattered Genesis Cover.


I don’t know exactly what to write in this first post, so I am just going to ramble a little bit. Since I am literally T-minus 21 days until the end of finals, and twenty eight days from graduation (eek!) I will soon find myself with more free time than I have had for the past five years. I need some form of structured writing to do, or I will go out of my mind completely, so here I am, on WordPress.

Oh! And I want to randomly self-promote my science fiction, romance, thriller, postapocalyptic, space-y, dystopian, epic, sexy, ebook, The Shattered Genesis, which is, of course, 100% free on Amazon, Nook, Smashwords, Kobo, iBooks, and other places I have never heard of. (Like Oyster! The Netflix of books.) So here I am, on WordPress.

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